Thing is, everyone is so proud of me, making plans for attending my graduation, etc...What if I don't graduate? What if I've let things slide so far down that I can't fix it? I can't bear the idea of failing, of letting down my family, but I'm afraid I will. I don't understand how I could have been so bad at being a college student. I'm smart. I write well. I was an A-B student in high school. Yearbook editor, Student Council President, the whole enchilada. I walked into Colgate U. expecting to make a splash, but no dice.
My four years of college have been absolutely miserable. It seems like every bad habit I had in high school was exacerbated ten fold. I'm rambling and slightly whiny...sorry. I'm just scared. Everything is kind of uncertain right now and it just scares me.
